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Friday, 10 July 2020

For Women Returning From Love


 

Catherine Magodo Mutukwa

 

 For Women Returning From LOVE As If It Were A Long War...

  

She said

You do not understand

the kind of devastation that echoes through the body of a woman who has been shattered after exploding  and is in the process of disintegrating within herself...

And

The burden of carrying a tired soul which seems permanently heavy

Riddled with holes from fiery bullets

Of untold betrayal and hardened hate

Inflicted by an assault-rifle of a secret

War ruthlessly triggered by a MAN born of a WOMAN,

Because

I am a WOMAN born of a WOMAN

I thought if I spoke less

I thought if I folded myself more

Enough to fit into his mound,

He would stop...

But

He tore me off from his flesh as if I were a dead limb slowing him down serving no purpose

For many nights, I lay still in the cold

Trenches of my mind thinking the world had ended and began without me so that I could survive a barrage

Of hurtful words hailed my way before boring through to my core...

 

I said

 Come...

Let me gather you in my arms

Let the gentleness of my words embrace you as you inhale and then

Exhale

Allow the sound of my writing to soothe where it is hurting

Ahh! You want to die for a man who

Leaves you drowning in sorrow while

He unapologetically pursues a new

Fling?

It is a lie that you will not break if you

Keep bending backwards for a man who takes you for granted

You've been taught to hide your emotions behind silence and this they

said is 'womanly'

What barbarism!

To the woman who has fought long and hard and is tired now...

to the woman who has loved and lost,

A hero’s welcome awaits you!

We will understand when you begin to

unwrap stories of the conflict that left

you torn,

We will be patient while you sew the holes in your soul so you can grow a

thick skin to avoid being hurt again

by a man who destroys your peace and leaves you wondering why you aren't enough....

  

© Catherine Magodo-Mutukwa – is an award-winning Zimbabwean poet based in South Africa. There is more on her Facebook page (Catherine Magodo-Mutukwa Poet/Author).

 




Tuesday, 7 July 2020

RUDAVIRO’S JOURNEY

A Short Story By Simbarashe Kavenga

She was there rolling and rolling in the muddy waters by the slow flowing river. The Pastor stood in the still waters of the pool, a little distance upstream. His red eyes glued to the rolling naked body in the mud.

In his long white garments he looked like a ghostly silhouette in the moonlight. The owl hooted as if to confirm its witnessing the deeds that were done in the silent pool. Poor Rudaviro’s memories flooded back as she sat by the banks of the slow flowing river. It all started with a simple invite from her friend Tiyana to join her to the new church in town.

The church was led by a Pastor – a man of God. Yes they called him a man of God.

The Pastor was said to be so powerful and always cast away demons that no other so-called men of God had done before. The church was now popular in the town and all over the country as it also had adverts on radios and in newspapers almost every day. He was the man of God so every troubled soul had to know about this and come to the prayer warrior to be freed forever.

Every Sunday, and Friday nights, the church was always a full house. The blind, the sick, the crippled in wheel chairs, job hunters and many more thronged and stampeded to the church.

For Rudaviro, she thought maybe this was the man who would free her from the bondage of being single. Many of her age mates were now all married and blessed with three or four children. Many always wonder how on earth a beautiful lady like her would fail to tie the knot.

Yes she had a beautiful body made for the gods!

Rudaviro was now in her early thirties and still searching and failing. Her family had also lost hope that one day she would walk down the aisle holding dearly to her husband’s hand.

She had a good job in town but her remaining single was like a dark cloud hovering above her head.  

It was like a curse and she wanted it to be removed from her and find her own man.

In her shocked state in the mud, she remembered another church man who once told her that she was cursed and being used as a goblin’s wife by one of the family members who was very rich. She did not believe the man then but now she was buying into that prophecy.

The Pastor, the man of God could be the answer to the problem facing her. Her friend had assured her.

It was one hot Sunday at the church when she stumbled as she entered through the doorway. People who witnessed her near fall and held her believed that there were demons fighting her and therefore she needed a prayer. She was then led to the Pastor the all-powerful man of god. The Pastor could not believe his eyes when he saw such a beautiful woman kneeling in front of him. He felt like he was about to pray to the goddess of beauty.

He asked for her name and she said, “Rudaviro, Rudaviro Kajekete.”

 As he placed his hands on her head he uttered a few strange words while shaking his head and then he said, “Her problem needs to be discussed one-on-one, please may the ushers give her my number in the name of our Lord Jesus. May someone say Amen?”

The congregation shouted back, ‘Amen! Amen!’ One of the ushers scribbled the phone number on a piece of paper and handed it to Rudaviro.

At first Rudaviro did not want to phone the Pastor but the believer in her urged her to go for it. Two weeks down the line she phoned him.  When the Pastor heard her name he was thrilled.

As they talked on the phone the Pastor said the Holy Spirit was talking to him at that moment saying that they need to go to a river, a sacred pool so that she would be cleansed.

They were to go only the two of them and no one else from the church just the two of them he repeated. By the waters of the said pool her problems would be washed away.  He said he would ask the Holy Spirit for the date and time and he would phone her.

Two days later the Pastor phoned her and told her that they should meet the next day for their journey to the sacred pool. The pool the Pastor said was found just at the outskirts of the town. Yes, he said it was just a short distance from the town center towards the eastern side.

Rudaviro agreed yet some voice was knocking something into her mind. She ignored the whispering voice in the wind. As they drove out of town she was on the wheel. The Pastor was beside her reading or pretending to be reading the Bible.

Here and there the Pastor would spice their talks with words and stories from the Holy Book. And now and again Rudaviro would catch glimpses of the Pastor glaring at her with lustful eyes.  That was nothing to worry about she thought all men do that to women. All she wanted was to be freed, once and for all, from the evil that stalked her in life. She wanted to be free from spiritual bondage and feel free like a bird.

When they arrived at the said sacred pool they disembarked from the car and left it on the rarely used dirty road. They walked for a short distance to the river. The Pastor then told her that she should smear herself with mud. The mud would be representing the evil spirit that the Pastor was going to wash away. As the mud would be washed away so be the evil spirit from her also.

Rudaviro was told to remove all clothes she wore and to roll in the muddy waters naked.

She hesitated at first and the Pastor started praying and talking in tongues. Rudaviro suddenly found herself rolling and rolling naked in the muddy waters.

Standing in the pool the Pastor was shouting on top of his voice, praying. He was praying and pleading to God. He prayed and swore in the pool as Rudaviro rolled and rolled to no end in the mud. The Pastor then beckoned Rudaviro to come in the pool. Rudaviro ignored the first call and the Pastor waited for her. He was the one who was supposed to clean the mud off her, he reminded her. But Rudaviro could not move even an inch towards the pool where the Pastor was.

Smiling like a Cheshire cat in the moonlit night the Pastor stood still. His right hand wandered in the back pockets of his trouser and brought out the bottle of anointed oil.

Once again, he beckoned Rudaviro to join him in the pool. Rudaviro wanted to put on her clothes but was told not to worry about that.

“As it is for now, the shadows of nearby trees would be your clothes in this moonlit night,” said the Pastor

At last she walked towards the pool slowly taking a step at a time. She wandered into the pool clothed only in mud straight to the waiting uneasy hands of the Pastor.

The Pastor started praying, washing the mud off her slowly, bit by bit. After that he poured the anointed oil on her from the head down the whole body. He started massaging her while praying even louder, pretending to be casting the demons away. His hands were all over Rudaviro’s body as he was now acting like a man in a trance. Rudaviro could not bear the firm hold of the man of God. The Pastor was now holding her too close to himself, breathing heavily.  She struggled to free herself from the hard grip. The Pastor was also struggling to keep her within his reach and to subdue her.

After a while in this dance in the pool, the Pastor shouted in a triumphant voice, “It’s all over! Sister, the deed is done. You are now free!”

Rudaviro, feeling the pain, could not believe the words. They were like spears piercing her heart to shreds. With her eyes clouded in tears of lost hope she saw the Pastor fixing his trouser. The Pastor handed her the clothes to wear. He warned her never to tell anyone and if she failed to keep the secret the evil spirits would visit her again this time in droves.

 

 

 

Simbarashe Clever Kavenga (above) is a published fiction writer and poet.